Letter To My Precious Imao-Kun

Hey, promise me.
The next time we meet , we'll be closer to our dream.
Me as an pianist/music conductor and you as success man.

Imao..
I love you.
I'll always love you, even when we are apart.

When I look up at the sky , I'll look for the moon
In order for me to find me immediately , it has to shine brighter and brighter :)


xoxo ,
i-cha

My beloved one , Imao :)

rambutnya agak ikal,

badannya sedikit bungkuk,

tulang pipinya terlihat jelas,

senyumannya nanggung tapi cukup untuk membuatku tersenyum balik kepadanya,

jika dia tertawa matanya akan menyipit dan saat dia tertawa adalah saat yg paling suka,

karena...tawanya membangkitkan semangatku :)

hobinya :

- menjahiliku

- membelai rambutku

- memainkan telingaku

- yg paling menyebalkan adalah dia hobi membuatku cemburu -__-

tapi aku sangat suka!

caranya membuatku cemburu , menjahiliku , dan cara dia menunjukkan kalo dia itu benar-benar sayang sama aku. Sangat unik!

Dia punya cara tersendiri , beda dengan yg lain.

Itulah yg aku suka darinya.

Ya, hanya dia!

My beloved Imao :*

-hugs-

Letter to my "A" ♥

I’ve been going through so much lately.
I haven’t found a lot of reasons to smile, but I want to let you know that whenever I feel like crying and breaking down I think of you and I manage a smile.

You make me happy and the thought of you reassures me that everything will be ok.
You don’t know how many times I’ve held myself back from crying.
As strong as I make myself look, I am weak inside.

 If there had to be anyone in this world that could always make me smiles, it would be you. It would be you because of all the simple things you do in life that make me happy.

It’s because your smile makes me smile and the thought of you makes me smile. I don’t know what my life would be life if I didn’t meet you.
It would probably be plain and untouched by love. I’d probably end up liking some other person, who of course wouldn’t ever compare to what you mean to me.

When I look into your eyes, I see love. I see everything, I see you. I can give you my heart and my love right now and forever.

I hope nothing between us will ever change, but if anything had to change, it would be the love I have for you, because it would get stronger everyday.

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On our first week, I promise to be by your side through all the good or bad. Through all the tears and laughs. I promise to show you how much I love you everyday.
You won’t ever take me for granted because you know how easy it is for me to walk away(again).

Since that day, I promise in my heart not to cheat on you because I know in my heart that you’re the only one I want for the rest of my life.
I promise to listen to every little thing you say because it matters.
 I promise not to give up on you or us no matter how hard it gets because nothing worth having comes easy.

Whenever we fight, I promise to apologize when I’m wrong and forgive you when you’re wrong.
I promise to always try to be there for you whenever you need me and even when you don’t. And whenever you push me away or you walk away, I promise to always walk after you because I know that you don’t want me to leave, you’re just afraid I won’t understand.

There are times when things are going to be difficult, but I promise to give us my best shot. My love for you will always be unconditional.
I promise that my love for you won’t ever change and that it will only get better from here. Last but not least, I promise to love you for the rest of my life.

You’ve made me the happiest person in the world by being my boy.
Now I hope you do me the honor of being mine for eternity

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I’m not perfect. You aren’t either and the two of us won’t ever be perfect. But if I can make you laugh at least once, cause you to think twice, and I admit to being human when I make a mistake, hold onto me and give me the most you have.

I’m not going to quote poetry,
I’m not thinking about you every minute of every day,
but I will give you a part of me that I know you can break -my heart.

Don’t hurt me,
don’t change me,
don’t expect more of me than I can give.
Don’t analyze.

Smile when I make you happy, yell when I make you mad, and miss me when I’m not there.

Love hard when there is love to be had. Perfect people don’t exist, but there’s always one person who’s perfect for you. I’ve found my perfect person and I’m hoping I can be your perfect person.

*** I love you ‘til infinity ***

I may talk to other boys,
I may laugh with other boys,
I may even hug other boys,
But none of them will ever mean as much to me as you.

And if this isn’t enough proof, then i’ll spend my whole life proving it…

“if you say I’m sweet for remembering every little detail about you. I’m not doing it to be sweet, I remember because I pay attention. I pay attention because I love you and I’m glad to be your exception.”



repost from old facebook : Icaami Everlast :)

Terjauh dari keluarga membuatku mulai berpikir dewasa :)

Annisaa I-cha Fitriani

Ga perlu menghabiskan banyak dana untuk membuat suatu moment yg menurutmu akan menjadi sangat berkesan, karna moment yg berkesan tercipta saat kamu bersama orang yg kamu sayang dan menyayangimu serta selalu ada bersamamu apapun keadaanmu. jangan lupa bersyukur atas setiap kejadian yg kita alami kemarin, hari ini, dan besok karna ALLAH selalu memberi kita nikmat dan hadiah setiap harinya :)

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  Ellysa Murti says : Wah.. icaaa.. Itu betul bgt lho.. Nikmati hidup.. Krn kehidupan ini sdh ada yg memberi sesuai takarannya masing2..

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  Annisaa I-cha Fitriani iyaa ma , Allah selalu kita ngasi lebih tanpa kita sadari :)

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  Ellysa Murti Betul nak.. Mama senang skrg ica sdh tumbuh dan berfikir secara dewasa..
  Selalulah bersyukur apa dan bagaimana bentuknya yg tlah kita rasakan pada setiap detiknya..

flashback :')

Back to "The incident one year ago" story.

 Entah apa yg buat aku terlalu menyayanginya dan terus memikirkannya. Jelas

 dia tidak memikirkan aku seperti aku yg memikirkannya. Kata orang itulah cinta, buta.

Singkatnya dulu aku dan ami hanyalah sebatas Couple dalam game , tapi ga lama setelah dia menghilang aku malah mencarinya. Dan saat bertemu kembali dengan dia, tak mudah untuk menjelaskan apa yg aku rasakan untuknya selama dia menghilang. Berulang kali aku mengucapkan kata maaf dan membutuhkan waktu untuk menunggu dia memaafkanku dan akhirnya aku kembali menjalin hubungan dengan dia, hingga akhirnya kami menjalin The Real Relationship :)

kenapa dia dulu sempet ilang? karna aku!

dulu aku bimbang, pas dia datang dan mantanku kembali disaat yg bersamaan :(

disisi lain aku masi sayang sama mantanku dan disisi lain aku ngerasa comfort sama Ami.

what am i supposed to do ?!

akhirnya aku putusin buat lepas ami dan kembali ma mantan aku.

setelah kita balikan, apa yg aku cari? apa yg aku rasain?

Faktanya aku ngerasa kehilangan Ami!!

kenapa? kenapa disaat aku sudah menemukan apa yg aku cari malah aku lepasin hanya karna mantanku kembali? sepintas aku berpikir karna aku masi sayang dengan mantanku ini.

Tapi nyatanya, rasa sayang ini udah ga kayak dulu waktu kami masi bersama, lebih tepatnya rasa ini sudah berubah.

"Ami mana ami ... ?" cuma kalimat ini yg ada di otakku.

Lalu bagaimana dengan nasib mantanku? Aku meminta maaf padanya dan berkata apa adanya, ternyata dia pun demikian (lantas kenapa kami berdua memutuskan untuk kembali? bzzz)

Sempat aku menulis note di fb :

Everything Is Nothing by Annisaa I-cha Fitriani on Monday, August 30, 2010 at 8:05am ·

feel this pain , make me know
that i've done he wrong
now it make me away from him

you almost gone
but i want to try to make everything in the right way again

while i tried to make it right , i really get my self lost

all i think now is NOTHING , everything is NOTHING
if i dont have you :(

is it only my feeling? or you do feel the same?
i had no idea what you feel now :(

i'm really want to apologize for making you feel this pain
i wont that happend

don't you ever say it has to end (anymore)



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Finally ketemu Ami lagi, aku coba perbaiki hubungan yg dulu diawali dengan kata maaf yg berulang-ulang. Ami mungkin sempat merasa..entahlah seperti apa yg jelas dia terlihat marah dan selalu memasang lagu "You're Already Gone"

Hopeless, bingung harus apa. Tapi akhirnyaa beberapa hari kemudian, kita sms.an dengan dipenuhi basa basi dan gombalan ala kambing haha :p

Ami messages :

Date:25.10.2010 20:43:01

TEXT : nyebelin gmn? g mngkin ak msh syng km kl km nybelin. hwaahahaha

Date:03.11.2010 21:52:08
TEXT : you're sweeter than ice cream. more addicting than drugs.!

Date:08.11.2010 22:07:04

TEXT : aiih.. i hope so. i'll do all my best just for you. ;shy

Date:08.11.2010 22:21:54

TEXT : i never even wanna lost u a bit. always loving u even more than loving myself. coz you're the only person on my head. ;luph

Date:08.11.2010 22:39:27
TEXT : pasti! ca. lets make a vow! a vow which stated that we'll never be separated! ya? yakusoku?

everynight we always chat on the phone, he always tell me a story about his day , story that he made by his own imagination and sang a Goodnite/Lullaby song before i go to sleep *so sweet ya :)

This is what healways sing for me , everynight

" Try to sleep now, close your eyes. Soon the birds will start singing. All the stars wish you goodnight. So I’m switching off the lights. One more hug. One more smile. Kiss you once. Kiss you twice. I’ll be here, for awhile, try to sleep now and close your eyes. "

things i want to do when i'm with you (it's just a dream now) :')

Me, I’m 18, I go to work as a job training at Sheraton Hotel & Towers , I don’t have my own place, and I don’t get paid a lot of money. But I will pamper my boy with a message, hugs, kisses, and sweet surprises. Our dates consist of driving around, eating cheap fast food, and hanging out. I don’t have to spend every single dollar that I have just to make him happy, but if I do it’s because I want to.

“They say that love like in the movies don’t exist in real life. I say it’s a good thing because we could make a way better story anyway”

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I’m sorry for the fights that we’ll get into.

I’m sorry for making you sad.

I’m sorry for lying.

I’m sorry if I get jealous.

I’m sorry if I act childish sometimes.

I’m sorry if I’m a pain in the ass sometimes.

And I’m sorry for everything that I’ll do to make you unhappy.

I thank you for all the smiles that you’ll bring me, all the happiness you can give me.

I thank you for being there when I really need you. Thank you for brightening up my day.

If you make me cry, then that’s okay. Just don’t make that a habit.

If you hold my hand, hold it tight so that you can make sure that I don’t slip away.

If you hold me, just know that I won’t stop smiling.

I want you to know that if I ever do slip away, I didn’t want to, but it was something that I couldn’t help.

And when I realize how stupid I was, I hope that you still haven’t given up on me yet.

And I hope that you’ll still be there to give me another chance because I would give you that second chance.

I know that there’ll be times where I can’t always make you happy.

I know that there’ll be times where I won’t be able to see you because of I’m too afraid of loosing you, but know that I really just want to be with you right at that moment and know that I just want to be in your arms.

I don’t need you to kiss me every minute like how some couples are because I’d rather you just give me a surprise.

I’ll love it when you make me laugh, even if it’s something completely stupid, a cheesy joke, a silly face, anything, I’ll love it.

I’ll introduce you to my friends if you want and you can introduce me to yours, but that really doesn’t matter to me.

Knowing you is good enough for me.

You won’t me fall for any of your friends and my other friend(boys) because you’d hate that

And sometimes I think, “why would I want them when I have you?” J

you tell me that, “I just hope that you can do the same”

I understand what you mean, you want me not too close with my friend because you’re afraid of loosing me (again).

If I can :

I’ll watch movies with you all day if you wanted to - your favorite movies, my favorite movies, new movies, any movie.

We can go to the park and run around you can chase me around the playground.

We can stay up all night on the phone and not even say anything to each other.

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Things I want to do…

Talk to you
Share secrets with you.
Hug you.
Hold you.
Laugh with you.
Invite you everywhere.
Hangout with you.
Smile with you.
Take pictures with you.
Always hug you
And say hi whenever I see you and every morning.
Tell you the way I feel about you.
Tell you you’re my everything.
Make you feel loved.
Won’t lie to you.
Won’t cheat on you.

"If it seems like there is something wrong, i will ask you, if you deny something being wrong, it means you don’t want to talk about it, so i’ll just hug you."

Take me everywhere and anywhere I want.

Be there for you whenever you need me, and even when you don’t need me, just be there so you’ll know that you can always count on me.

Kiss you on the cheek.

Wont ever tell you to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad.

If you’re upset, i will comfort you.

When people diss you, i will stand up for you.

Look deep into your eyes and tell you I love you.

Lay down under the stars and put my head on your chest so we can cuddle.

When walking next to you, i want you to grab my hand.

When I hug you, I wanna hold you in my arms as long as possible.

Take me for long walks at night.

Always remind you how much i love you.

Write letters on your back with my finger.

Let you sleep on my lap.

And i also think you told me things you want to do and maybe you’ll said :

"Touch your waist , 

Pull me onto your lap ,

Hug you from behind around the waist.

Hold your hands in public.

Give you my coat if you’re cold.

Hold you close when you’re cold so you can hold me too.

Love you, kiss you, hold you

And treat you like you’re my everything

Comfort you when you cry and wipe away your tears"

Even if you look bad one day, I’ll laugh and say “ whadda fool monkey, that weird face disagreed with your face, cheer up monkey” :D

If your hair is in your face, I’ll move it out and then kiss your cheek.

Surprisingly sneak up on you and hug you from behind”.

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Is that too much to ask for?

I wil never hear those word from his mouth, but it wasn’t a bad thing to dream about it, right? :p

♥A

Bersyukur :)

Post yg kali bukan tentang "The Incident One Year Ago" yaaa :)

Kali ini aku mau nulis tentang betapa bersyukurnya aku akan hal-hal yg terjadi akhir-akhir ini :)

Mulai bulan kemarin aku menjalani Job Training di Sheraton Hotel & Towers di Bandung. Awalnya yg ku rasakan adalah capek , lelah , dan dalam otakku terus mengeluh dan berkata tidak bisa melakukan ini itu sesuai dengan apa yg mereka contohkan. Sekarang nyatanya, aku merasa mulai menikmatinya. Perbedaan antara 1bulan yg lalu dengan sekarang terlihat jelas berbeda. Dulu aku belum bisa beradaptasi dengan staff yg lain, sekarang? jangan di tanya , mereka sering bersenda gurau denganku :)

Oh iya , ini tempat kerjaku

di tempat ini aku bikin jus , makan ngumpet-ngumpet dan bertemu orang" baru haha :p

(Service Bar)

sebenernya ada 1 tempat lagi , tapi belum aku foto -_-

Kembali ke topik yaa , 

Kenapa hari ini aku merasa bersyukur? karna hari ini aku menyadari bahwa Allah telah memberiku banyak nikmat tanpa aku sadari.

Kemarin, tepatnya tanggal 1 Maret 2012. Hotelku menjadi tempat perayaan sweet 17th birthday seorang gadis cantik bernama Saida Natasha. Acara yg mewah, ramai, dan bisa dibilang seru untuk seorang anak SMA :)

Seorang senior datang menghampiriku dan berkata, "kalo di service bar-nya sepi dan ga ada orderan, kamu bantu incharge di restaurant aja yaa". Tanpa ragu aku mengiyakan perintah dari senior, melihat ramainya restaurant yg dipenuhi dengan anak-anak SMA yg sedang datang memenuhi undangan temannya yg sedang berulang tahun dengan baju dress dan penampilan yg "waah" seperti akan menghadiri acara Prom Night.

Apa saja yg aku lakukan saat incharge membantu orang-orang restaurant?

Aku meng-clear-up piring, sendok, dll. Ga lama setelah aku selesai clear up (acara masi berlangsung) aku menggantikan temanku menjaga stand ice cream , itu yg namanya tamu ga ada abisnya buat ngantri dan minta ice cream -_-

Sering banget aku bolak balik re-stock bowl beserta tea spoon-nya dan ice cream sampe kita refill 3x (kalo ga salah). Nah dari sini, entah kenapa kerja sama antar anak restaurant, pastry dan aku begitu terasa. Kami kerja sambil ngobrol sedikit dan yg aku rasakan adalah dunia kerja mungkin melelahkan tapi kita tidak bekerja sendiri dan saat seperti inilah istilah "manusia adalah makhluk sosial" terlihat jelas. Tanpa bersosialisasi kerjaan akan terasa berat dan menjemukan, boleh ngobrol tapi di waktu yg tepat dan jangan terlalu berlebihan :)

Melihat kembali acara ulang tahun sang tamu , mengingatkanku kembali akan ulang tahunku yg kemarin (13 februari). Jelas jauh berbeda, di usiaku yg ke-18 aku jauh dari rumah dan keluargaku tapi tahun ini aku tidak sendirian :)

Ada @restyechy yg tiba-tiba datang ke service bar buat nanyain KOREK API (?)

aku bilang aja ga ada, lagian nyari korek di service bar kan ngaco -_-

trus dia balik lagi, dia datang dengan sepotong kue rich choco yg disertai dengan lilin-lilin kecil yg bikin kue itu keliatan mungil dan imut.

Aku dan eci nyanyi-in lagu "happy birthday" dengan suara yg kecil lalu meniup lilin.

Baru tahun ini ada yg memberiku kue dan memberi mini-surprise , seneng!!

berulang kali aku bilang "Thanks Eci..Thanks.."

kalo di bandingkan dengan sweet 17th (cewe) di hotel , emang sih meriah dan keliatan.a lumayan "waah" tapi ga kalah meriah sama ulang tahun gw yg kmren klo (menurut gw), karna ultah sweet 18th gw kmren di rayain sama temen baru gw si Resty Rachmawaty dengan cake rich choco yg mungil, sederhana tapi penuh dengan ketulusan yg di kasih cuma buat gw. thank eci and thanks God, karna hari ini gw masi bisa mensyukuri apa yg gw dapat :)

*Ga perlu menghabiskan banyak dana untuk membuat suatu moment yg menurutmu akan menjadi sangat berkesan, karna moment yg berkesan tercipta saat kamu bersama orang yg kamu sayang dan menyayangimu serta selalu ada bersamamu apapun keadaanmu. jangan lupa bersyukur atas setiap kejadian yg kita alami kemarin, hari ini, dan besok karna ALLAH selalu memberi kita nikmat dan hadiah setiap harinya :)